narcissus: [i feel like i've written a million of these. none of them ever say what i want them to and none of them ever seem to convey me. they seem to end up being a girl prototype or a list of various media i consume. neither of which is me and neither of which makes me feel like it's worth it to write these. regardless, i insist on including this because it annoys me when other people don't have them.] name: rachel suzanne where: california from chicago is: poet, painter, dreamer, seeker listens: tori amos, elliot smith, pj harvey, rachel's, melissa ethridge, portishead, slowdive, ani difranco, leonard cohen, cowboy junkies, concrete blonde, morphine, nick drake, tool, rasputina, billie holiday, indigo girls, delirium read/00: rosie, anne lamott poems between women, emma donoghue foreign brides, elena lappin the california book of the dead, tim farrington midnight salvage, adrienne rich read/timeless: hood & stir-fry, emma donoghue written on the body, jeanette winterson the hanged man, francesca lia block cunt, inga muscio robber bride, margaret atwood art: remedios varo, sally mann, gustav klimt, j. w. waterhouse, chagall, jackson pollock long form: i am captivated by wilderness and beauty. i like swimming naked and sunlight on my face. i like finding myself in different places. i like the feeling of getting a tatoo. i like mandarin orange spice tea. i like waking up curled in blankets and driving in the dark. i have a preference for color and cotton comforters and music in my head. candles and the way spiders can weave a web overnight. floating in water. water in any form. a good pair of sandals or bare feet. silver rings and a leather woven bracelet from the woman i love (oddly purchased before 'love' was a word we used). i am, as most of us are, a patchwork of people i have met and places i have been. i want to travel everywhere. books make more sense of me. wanting to write this i can think of thouands of quotes, passages, excerps, that tell what i want to say. all my life i have been finding a refuge in words. now i am trying to build my own. find my own context. though i still wrap myself in books, poems, songs. use a safety net of others words. i am searching for meaning. simply, i believe in god. i dance. i am emotional and passionate. i am selfish. sometimes i use mirrors for weight. i remind myself i exsist. i am waiting for something to happen. contact: icq# 37409845 fallen@palesky.com